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This just made me so happy and hopeful and I’m glad some people view it this way :) I’m just a bit of a cynic but I’ll get over it.
It wasn’t a date really. It was me finding a guy on Grindr and hoping he was still awake at three in the morning and felt like driving to meet me. It turned out he wasn’t a rapist or murderer and turned out to be incredibly cool. He was so nice and we talked watching the bay until the sun came up. We didn’t just say “so… sex?” like most gay guys do and we didn’t have any awkward bumps in the conversation. I feel like I met a NORMAL person, not a gay guy you meet on Grindr.
It’s such a testament to the argument that if homosexuality was a choice, we wouldn’t choose it because it’s so hard to live this way. Constantly having to hide the fact that we’re desperate for a boyfriend or to make out with a guy we see but know is straight. It’s a shame that people like me have to count on internet dating and sleezy iPhone apps just to MEET someone because everyone around is straight, or too afraid to come out.
Along with that we never will have the classic movie example of a date. A dinner and a movie. If people see too men doing that they’ll obviously give snotty or hateful looks. Even if I were to go to a gay accepting area I would still feel strange to be holding a man’s hand in public because of how I was raised in a systematically straight way. Constantly seeing only straight couples in the media that surrounds me makes me want to strive for that simple romance, but replacing a woman with a man in the stereotypical examples just feels wrong because of how I was raised.
All in all I’m glad to have accepted myself as young as I did. I’m glad to have come out of the closet and let people know who I am before I tried to cover myself up and only cause self destruction. I’m glad that I lived in such an accepting (although not encouraging) environment as I grew more and more open minded throughout the years.
